Trigger warning
Well my lovelies. . . we’ve made it into our new home.
Thanks to The Hubby, The Boy, Uncle D, two cars and a l o t of hard graft, we made it.
Alas my mental health is suffering. A lot .
We’ve had no phone, internet, and television until today, and thus finding distraction from my thoughts, voices, general scary stuff, has been so hard.
I find myself feeling trapped in the bedroom. Surrounded by boxes yet to be unpacked. I rarely leave the bedroom.
I find myself going back to some old habits. Rocking backwards and forwards. Peeling the skin from my lips.
My anxiety is u n b e a r a b l e . Simply u n b e a r a b l e.
I’m phoning the Doctor tomorrow. My own Doctor is not available so I will need to speak to the on-call, which isn’t ideal.
The Hubby has been amazing. Looking after me. I love him so.
I’m just feeling so much pressure at the moment that something is giving. Something in my head. But I’m trying my hardest to use Mindfulness, distraction, anything.
I hope you are all feeling strong and well.
Much love,
Karen x
slightly manic mummy 
Glad you’re moved in. Sorry you’re struggling emotionally though 😦 Hope it gets better for you soon.
Thank you so much. I’m sure it will just take time. Logically I know that, but the ‘ole Bipolar brain isnt grasping that! Hope you are well 🙂
We are logical until we need to be then the logic abandons us! lol
Thanks, I’m doing alright 🙂
Yeah those empty times are the worst. I don’t think we realize how much we use TV, PC’s or music to block out, not only our voice in our head, but also everything around us that could trigger. Anxiety, mania, depression. Always waiting to pounce. Like a lion trainer in a circus, we need that proverbial chair to hold them at bay.
Remember this; Bipolar lies and this too shall pass. Your comfort zone will return and you will have moved forward yet again.
You are stronger than you think.
Thank you so so much. You’ve no idea how much your comment has helped. I’ve got to remember that this to shall pass. Thank you x
I’m sorry the move has been so harsh. I know how moves are. I’m still trying to adjust to mine. It’s going to take some time, so make sure to give yourself the time and let yourself feel. Even if it is agonizing.
Good call to call the doc. Let us know how it goes.
Thanks so much 🙂 You are totally right. I do need to have these feelings, and get through them. Logically I know I can, but my ‘ole bipolar brain isnt listenning! lol! x
Yes!! you’ve moved! *smiles*…It will pass Karen!.. remember it’s easy to feel negative about a change..But think of all the new things your about to encounter.
I love unpacking I feel like it’s christmas..even though I know there just from the other house! LOl
Ooohhh!! Where’s the bakery? Yum!…Where’s the local supermarket/shopping centre? You know you love to shop! *smiles* (me too!).
Look at it like your on an adventure! and you have a treasure map which you have to find your way to all the things… you love doing!!!
Unpacking is at the start of the treasure map! …Stop biting your lip!..it will bleed or maybe even give you a cold sore. Lol….*heaps of huggs to you*….you can do it!…believe in yourself! xxxxx
Thank you so much for your positive vibes today, I can practically feel them zinging out of the screen!! They really did keep me going this morning. I was in a dark place. I cant thank you enough xxxxxxx
Yes!!!
You got a glimmer of sunshine.*.Whoops *
and fairy dust!! Lol.
I’m off to the country to cuddle 1 of my Llamas, The girl (Margie) won’t let me come that close.
We love each other through eye contact! *laughing*
Okay..so I hope you started unpacking and looking through all the treasure:)
Have a great weekend
love Paula x
Moving sucks–it messes with the key part of treating bipolar–stability. I hope that you feel better soon and get all settled in!
Thank you so much 🙂 Sounds weird, but I hadn’t actually thought about that yet, that stability is a key part of treating bipolar. Makes total sense and corresponds with what kind of situations trigger me. Thank you x
Thanks so much. It sounds weird, but I’ve never thought about that before – that stability is a key part of treating bipolar. That makes total sense as to what situations trigger me. Thank you 🙂