I’m guessing a lot of people reading this will have a similar problem to me . . . sometimes, being outside is t o r t u r e .
When I was recently thinking back to when I had my gigantic melt down over 2 years ago, I had totally forgotten about a behaviour I developed whenever I was on my own walking to work, or indeed walking anywhere alone.
I was so paranoid. Everyone was looking at me . Everyone new I wasn’t normal. Everyone knew I was c r a z y .
So . . . .
I started walking to work with my mobile phone to my ear (making sure it was on vibrate!) , pretending I was talking to someone. Ohhhhh boy.
I would pretend I was talking to someone and I would tell them what was going on in my head, the thoughts I was having.
Yikes. Healthy?? Me thinks not!
I have stopped doing it now. . . but then again, I’m off sick at the moment so who knows what I will be doing when I’m walking to work again!
I still wear my sunglasses everywhere. My little shields. And they look cool.
Do any of you have any coping behaviours you developed when you were feeling ill and vulnerable?
I hope you are all feeling well.