This letter has been a long time coming.
We both know it hasn’t been working for a very long time.
The simple truth is. . .(takes deep breath). . .I just don’t love you anymore.
Hell, I don’t even like you anymore.
I don’t trust you.
It seems that everyone’s lives are perfect. Everyone is always so happy. Everyone is always so beautiful. Everyone’s life is always going so well. No blips, no screw-ups, no crap.
Well I’m not buying it anymore.
It does me damage to read you, look at you. I feel immensely, deeply sad whenever I use you. It makes me question my life and ‘why isn’t it as good as all my Facebook Friends??’
But now I know better. Now I know Facebook is often used as a f i l t e r and presents to the world what people wants the world to see.
Uh-uh. No thanks. Not interested.
I never used to feel this way.
There was a time when I was checking you, examining you every few minutes.
But it was for all the wrong reasons. It wasn’t healthy. I made mistakes.
Then I got really ill. Or I should say, my illness came to a head. As I was so ill, I stopped my relationship with you. I wasn’t o n l i n e for a long time.
And I didn’t miss you one bit. Not one bit.
You see, I was confusing staying in contact with friends, and obsessively pouring over you. Its a very false way to keep friendships for me. A lot a people can function healthily with you that way, and use it to keep healthy friendships. And that’s fine for them.
But not me.
Perhaps my choice of ‘Facebook Friends’ is a big part of the problem. There are lots of parts of my life that I n e v e r want to think about, get i l l thinking about, and there are people associated with those times as my ‘Facebook Friends’.
Maybe this is the mistake? I don’t blame those people. . .well actually a few. But they’re not to know.
So do I do one of those ‘ F a c e b o o k e n e m a s ‘ that people do, and delete ALL of my friends and whomever comes back to me is a real friend? But what if no-one comes back? Or only a handful of people? I know how that will make me feel.
So do I just leave you there? Drifting around for when I want to contact very distant family?
Whatever I do, please consider our previous relationship over. O v e r .