I awoke this morning with a hideously sore back. Muscles are in s p a s m yet again.
I haven’t mentioned before, but have a t e r r i b l e back problem.
This has been going on for 13 years. 13 years of pain. Every. Single. Day.
When I started taking Quetiapine, my back pain got exponentially worse instantly. Very scary.
The Hubby and I formed the theory that because I was soooo out of it when I started treatment, I wasn’t moving when I was asleep, as one would naturally do. So I was waking up with my back in complete spasm.
The pain was so bad it was almost like being in labour.
Lots of grunting. Lots of swearing. Lots of sweating.
I couldn’t move, yet the pain was so bad I couldn’t keep still.
It was a real f i g h t to keep taking the Quetiapine. Why should I take this medication if I would be suffering like this? I would rather take the mental pain than the physical as it was so bad during that time.
But I got through it.
Quetiapine now has a softer grip during the night. I find I am sleeping a bit more naturally.
But sometimes, like this morning, it gives me a little nudge. A reminder.
I am awaiting treatment for my back, not surgery (yet!), but pain therapy and spinal physio.
Dealing with mental and physical pain is e x h a u s t i n g .
But it does prove to me that I am bloody strong at times. I do have a lot of fight in me . . .well I do today at least.
I hope you are all feeling strong,
Love Karen x